Reflecting On 2017

Friday, December 22, 2017


Sigh.
2017.
It was a lot.

My word for the year was LEAP. I wanted to jump into new experiences and changes, even if they scared me.

Looking back, I made a lot of leaps. Most significantly, I started a new position at my job, moved in with my boyfriend, and took a few trips just for fun without worrying about money. Yet, while I did do those things, there were also a lot of moments where instead of leaping forward, I froze.

Nearly every month this year, there was at least one post that involved, in one way or another, me questioning myself. I felt like everyone else was doing something while I was doing nothing. I worried that people I met, people I cared about, would only be temporary. I had to remind myself that I'm human, that I'm enough. Even when I focused on doing things that made me happy, there were times I spent the whole day on the couch or in bed. I struggled. I even wondered, what if I stopped blogging?

I questioned a lot. I doubted a lot. I measured myself against other people a lot. I'm hoping to be better about all of that next year. (More on that to come.)

Resolutions

For 2017, I had three resolutions, and for all of them, I could have done better, but at least efforts were made.

1. I wanted to be more involved, firstly by reading more blogs online and interacting with other writers. I do my best to stay on top of posts I've bookmarked for later, and if I read something I like, I let the person know, whether it be a tweet, comment, or DM.

Secondly, I wanted to stay involved in my friends' lives. I don't know if this is ever something I'll feel like I'm good enough at. I'm not good at regularly keeping in touch. It doesn't mean I don't care. Now that I think about it, I think it's because I'm not a big fan of small talk. I'd rather have a deeper conversation, but I also don't want to start up a conversation like that over text if I'm in the middle of something or have things to do and can't commit.

2. I wanted to say what needed to be said. To let people know when they made me feel good, and also when they made me feel not-so-good. This has been a big focus for me at work lately – voicing my opinions and speaking up about my concerns. I'm making sure I'm heard.

3. I wanted to manage my stress better. I've started doing yoga every day, which has helped. Taking at least a half hour every single day to breathe and focus on me makes a difference. There are times I've been in a bad mood, go through a yoga routine, and instantly feel more at ease.

Writing

I did a good amount of writing this year (and not all of it was about me feeling discouraged). I put up 90 posts this year, and since we are allowed to be proud and like our own writing, here are some that I like the most:

About friendships that give you a sense of belonging

About taking life as it comes and loving where we are

It comes in small doses with big waves

Feeling good enough is hard, but we have to keep trying

Friendships aren't black and white, all or nothing

A peek behind the scenes

Diet And Exercise Don't Have A Rule Book
You're not a better person if you work out and avoid sweets, and you're not a worse person if you don't do those things

But I Don't Want To Quit My Job
Unpopular opinion: I don't hate my office job

My friend and I talk about why we started blogging and what keeps us going

A fun vlog from one of my trips to Colorado

My favorite conversations to have

People I Follow

Here are a few online folks that I keep up with regularly:

Book reviews and interviews with authors and book-lovers
A fashion and lifestyle blog about keeping up with the latest fashions without breaking the bank
Thoughts and feelings about life, beautifully written
Beautiful, thought-provoking writing zipped up in an Instagram caption

Kristin Johns

A YouTube channel to make you smile

Some of the most personality-filled writing I've read, about fashion, beauty, and life in general

Book recommendations and a look into an author's daily life

A shining ray of light spreading positivity and happiness

Writings about life, because none of us is fucking up like we think we are

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2017 was hard for a lot of people. I hope you can look back and find some good in it.


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